2009 is slowly coming to an end!

I am happy for it cuz it has been a difficult year. Slowly to put things back in track but it's hard. Can't sell the house, so it makes it difficult living here. Sarah and I live in the basement, being upstairs is hard and all memories come back. I really wanted the other house so  bad !! it was super awesome and a huge yard for us and Harley LOL.

Taking over the catering business has been an interesting ride LOL. Slowly but surely, business is back the way it should be!

Wedding planning is still going on, next summer hopefully!

well what can I say!

as most know sarah's mom fell ill in August with cancer. It was a rough battle, and she passed away this thursday (RIP) We are releaved becuz the last fews days she was not her self and I don't think she was happy. She was and always will be a great inspiration to me. She changed my life and gave me a new lease on it. She showed me how to be strong and indepndant. Never doubted me once and for that I am very grateful. love you!


sarah and I have postponed our wedding till next year. I think it is for the best and most agree.

other than that I dunno;  jus trying to hold things together and move forward.

wedding planning is stressful
but we pretty much got everything bought; sarah got her dress and i got a suit, i'm gonna be smokin' LOL :P

went to Montreal last weekend with a couple friends,  was nice to unwind and relax :) 

school is going alright, not really enjoying it, but whatever! My focus is not completely there.

life is going ok. need some excitement in it though :P 

5 days till xmas .....

and 2008 is coming to an end !!!!

sadly a very well known drag queen passed away yesterday :( Vicki Lawsuit, I only knew her drag personality, I wish I would've known more about him.

got my grades back for theory n I got a C, I am ok with that. I was't expecting much more than that :) 

ooohhh got a king size bed for xmas!!!

oh how I love the snow :P wonder if there's snow in california LOL (cindy ya must miss it LOL) :P 

but f*ck I hate the cold blah !

xmas 10 days away wow!

so, I made it through semester 1, waiting patiently now for my grades LOL.

I have come to conclusion some people suck! :P

Sarah and I have a date for our wedding March 14th 2009! *smiles*

my mom-in-law is doing alright, she's off kemo now.

hmmm, almost done xmas shopping, have to get Sarah;s

oc transpo is still on stike, dumbassess... LOL , don't really blame the employees, even though most are inconsiderate!

well 2008 is coming to an end................

been an interesting year. Started school, pretty hectic and still trying to get use to it! Dropped some of my classess, cuz the work load was too much! But my grades are alright. I am pretty proud of myself :)

in august my mom-in-law was diagnosed with lung cancer and she had some brain tumors. It has been pretty rough. She is still hanging in there and she is a pretty strong woman.

Sarah and I are doing good, aside from all the things going on.

best news of all and I am sure most will understand that I have been waiting a very very very long time for this...
chris and my mom are NO longer together!  I feel bad for my mom, and I love her dearly.

hmm, what else........... well i will keep this updated now!

 omg I start school soon! AhhHHhhH! LOL! DId I mention I am sooooo freakin' scared. I feel like I am entering kindergarten and my parents are leaving me there LOL.  But it shall pay off in the end, and I will have my business!! Oh yes I will and that itself will be a miracle *smiles* 

Other than that, life is good , can't complain too much! Saw Melissa Etheridge on tuesday, wow that was the most amazing concert ever!! Worth every penny heh! Had my little man all day yesterday, took him to the Papanack Zoo and fishing for the first time! He caught his first fish I was so excited for him heh!  Oh ya I saw Melissa Ferrick as well at the Bluesfest and going to see her again in September.

I've been meeting up with some old friends, the ones that count and matter in my life and the ones I trust :) I've deleted plenty off of my MSN and FaceBook.  No more time for drama !!! 

Just a quick update for now !!! 

ttys 

Traci

 wow June is almost over with and in 2 months I'll be going to school! How crazy is that.?? LOL ! 

I'm on my last week of work at Buffet, they're not busy in july and august, so job hunting it is! 

got my wisdom teeth pulled finanlly on thursday, went alright, but learning how to chew again, god i feel like a toddler LOL! But my girlfriend has been amazing and taking great care of me. I love you and thank-you *kissess* 

was kinda hurt to find out that a friend of mine who I tried being there for, cuz she was there for me during my stressful times, that she said thank-you to all these people and not a mention of moi *shrugs* but it's only been a day since I read that, so tomorrow I will get over it! !!

one of my good friends from grade/high school got married this weekend, wish I could've been there :( Congrats to you both, can't wait to see you!! 

other than that. life is getting good, learning some new things ! letting go of some things, getting rid of people in my past ! ya know, all that fun stuff heh!  

alrighty, 
ttys ! 
oh and hi kris, miss talking to ya :( *huggss*

Well it has been a long time .................

I am good, I know what happy means now. I still have some anger to work on, but it's a slow process. I have no friends LOL ...meh, I miss venting and hangin out with people. But trust is something I don't easily do anymore. 

My life with Sarah is great, we're engaged, she proposed , (LOL) ! She treats me like I am supposed to be treated, she doesn't push buttons, she lets me have alone time, she knows when I am in bad mood to leave me alone or take my mind off of it. 

Last summer was great, we took alot of road trips and explored alot. This summer we'll do it again! I love you ! 

I still get to see Wesley once in awhile, I miss him sooo much :( He is growing up so fast ! love ya stinkerpoo! 

got most of my debts paid off, and saving up for school so far so good woohoo :P My job is great, I've been there longer than 3 weeks LOL :P 

i love the sheer joy of proving people wrong ................................
and my life is on the right track and it's nice waking up in the morning now and actually looking forward to the day.  

 Alrighty

it has been months since I posted.

Life has been hectic .... rollercoaster ride for me.

2007 was not a good year for moi.

some of it was .....

In May I broke up with my gf of almost 2 years :( It was probablly for the best, no, it was for the best.
I miss Wesley sooooooo much :( I do get to see him once in awhile, but not enough. I think his mom thinks I am gonna kidnap or something. *shrugs*  Kari and I still talk once in awhile. 

I didn't like the fact I lost "friends" becuz of her. Most or actually all of them believe her. Which is fine, I have come to realize, that some people don't wanna believe the truth. I mean someone has to be the bad guy, right ? and I am usually that person when a relationship ends. Hell, ask my first girlfriend LOL!  

I dunno, I guess just the simple fact  that some words that came out of so called friends were pretty harsh. I think the one that hit me the hardest would be Karrie (a different one, who i thought was a good friend, ha..) Drama see, Drama Do! Like, seriouslly, wow I dunno  if she was writing a script or something for a 3 hour long movie, but man she did a good job. If I could I would give you an Emmy ! Wondering or maybe not if you ever did get into my ex's pants LOL ! Who knows , me being stupid and all (being sarcastic) you did it behind my back? Or jealous cuz you couldn;t have me hahahaha! I doubt that though!! I mean the first time was hot and crazy, the second time too LOL! Chalk that one up on the board of women I slept with! 

Who else was there hmmm, ohh Sarah, good ole Sarah, Kari's best friend. Another person I thought I could confide in LOL. The many many times I was there for her. And the thanx I get is that I am an asshole. Like I would talk...The curious u were and who let who sleep with their gf with trust. Boy I was wrong for that. Mind you it was hot at the time....can we chalk that one up to LOL! 

Angela, well I got nothing harsh for you. Mind you threating me after kari and I broke up and the words you said to me, that killed alot. But some was truth. And I wish you and Henri the best. I miss you guys alot! 

Melissa wow, you, I dunno, really can't think of a nice word. You played me like nothing. 

Cindy,Cindy,Cindy ...wow what can I say about you....the biggest impact on my life good and bad. things happen for a reason and man did they ever. All I can say is thank-you and hope all is well in California :) 

I can't forget about mel, man I miss you and I miss the fun we had! You were the only one there for me and never judged me and you made forget alot of my stress. *hugggss* 

Kris I will mention you cuz after all these  years, wow lots of years eh LOL. Only one who has been around since my past.  Words cannot express how grateful I am to have you in my life, even though it is a cyber world for us LOL. 

You know it's been six and some months, I have lost my mind, my heart is not healed and I wonder many things. But now I can let all this go without getting angry and now it is my turn. I know "grow-up" and get over it and blah blah blah. But I love to write and I love to vent and sice people turn their backs on me. I can do it here and I could care less what anyone has to say. Becuz my life is slowly getting better.  I have a wonderful girlfriend now and treats  me like I am supposed to be treated  :) I love her and the patience she has with me and the understanding and just being there and not pushing me or making me feel like shit or making me feel stupid. Supporting me and never pushing my buttons. I am grateful for her and her family *smiles* 


Being depressed and sick it is not fun. I lost myself and I am determined to find myself, the person I like. I have learned alot and to everyone who I trusted my life with can go to hell for all I care. Cuz you are no better than me, you feed off I dunno what.